I’ve had a bit of a down/angsty week, which resulted in venting this frustration through a couple of blog posts. The first one is this piece on the NHS waiting list.
The NHS waiting list.
What a joyous place to be. Full of optimistic people all linking arms and singing praises of the wonderful time they are having.
Score of 1-10
Sarcasm – 10
I’m getting fed up now. I am getting hormones privately and my Dr is lovely and very helpful, but I really feel like I need more than a person on the end of an email now. I need an appointment, a need to see Dr who I can discuss things with properly.
I had my blood tested this week and the results came back today. My testosterone has almost tripled since I was last tested, which was the end of November. From 5.6 up to 13.9. Great! That’s not good news.
However my oestrogen has doubled. From 212 up to 418! Well that’s awesome! I love that! But… what on earth is going on in my body!!? I would very much like to know what is happening.
This strange fluctuation is beyond me and I don’t have anyone to contact in order to make an appointment and speak about this with.
My GP will probably not be of any use. I may book an appointment just to see if they can shed any light on it but I imagine they will say something similar to before, which along the lines of not k owing anything about the mtf hrt process.
Like I say, my Online Dr is great, but I just feel a bit lost at the moment, helpless and left to my own mind and google to find the answers that I need.
I need help and the NHS are not providing it. I know this does not just reflect the care for transgender people. The entire health service is stretched, but that doesn’t change the fact that there are people like me and in worse circumstances, who being left feeling like they have been forgotten about.
Thank you to Carol for your comment. I didn’t mention in the post the units of measurement for the hormone levels. See below my latest blood results, this should give those arbitrary numbers some context!